Guys, unless some miracle happens, this is gonna be the last you'll hear from me at dA.

I thought I was an artist. I thought I could draw. Then all my planned projects fell apart, and so did my life. I have had no idea what do draw for a long time. I look at my sketchpad, and try to put one line there, but nothing comes out.

I am clearly more talented in other areas than drawing. Not that I'll never draw again, but I can't seem to do anything.

dA was supposed to be my big break, but thanks to journals and notes I found out how much my relationship with Ansley went from paradise to total hell. We seemed inseparable, and then it just stopped for reasons still unbeknownst to me.

I didn't get very much support here, what with having only 12 people watching me... I've been neglected by a few people.. It's just too much to take.

But there is some light, especially for you pessimists reading this: Don't mistake this as a suicide note. I have enough strength to live, and I have reasons to do so. I just have one fewer reason, really, and that reason lives in southern California.

I sure hope no one celebrates my departure from dA. I'll still have my friends around the word, Zach, Amine, Bi, and the rest.. I just won't have any drawings to share with them, or you.

I'm sorry if I disappointed anybody with my lack of artistic talent. I'm sorry if I offended anyone (which I doubt I did). But it's time for me to move on and find something better to do than attempt to draw.

If you want to keep in contact with me, SFMaster11 on AIM. Wish me a happy birthday next month if you're that considerate.

And if I may say one last thing to Ansley... Don't think I was trying to anger you. You kept me happy for those four months we were together, and even if I get a new girlfriend (which I know I will)... there'll always be a place in my heart for you.

To all the tSf'ers here, I will still be around that place. Don't think I'm giving this up for good.

But to anyone who's ever royally pissed me off and never shown me respect, just remember what Tom Hanks said as Jimmy Dugan in A League of Their Own...
You're all full of shit and you can kiss my ass.

My last bit of angst.

Goodbye all.
-DJ